It's been quite awhile since I sat down and wrote anything.  So here goes.  Since the last time I wrote I have moved to a day position at work which has had its ups and downs.  Ups I feel like a normal person, I am no longer sleeping on my days off and can spend time with my family.  Downs L has decided that he can whatever he wants whenever because he is home by himself in the afternoon about 3 days a weeks and baby J has literally been sick since August when he started daycare.  It has been a struggle to get him well to say the least.  So I am going to move positions again at work and go to a weekend only position so that we can get rid of daycare and someone is home everyday with L who will be 12 next month.
I have a feeling that it will be rough the first few weeks.  Whoever complained about babies being hard has never had a child that is almost a teenager.  I have L and then baby J and I can tell you baby J is far easier and simpler to deal with.  Some days I have no idea what to do with L.  I question where I went wrong and why I didn't notice that an alien has invaded my sons body until now.  I am amazed at the lack of respect that he has for his things all the while knowing that it is just part of his age and it will get better if only both of us can survive to the other side.
Baby J is a whole other story.  Chronic illness is not great.  It started out as multiple ear infections and then tubes that were necessary because he only had 30% of his hearing prior to surgery.  You always feel like you are paranoid as a parent but it finally made since as to why his first word wasn't until 10 months and then the word was up.  His vocabulary has greatly improved since the tubes.  Now it is this cough that won't go away.  Same cough since August and it won't go away even after daily asthma breathing treatments.   So yesterday we went to a pediatric pulmonologist.  When I walked into the office I almost broke down into tears.  It didn't hit me until I was there that I am taking my child to a place where really sick kids go.  I guess the nurse in me left and the scared mother took over for a moment.  So the doctor, who was really great,(I am lucky to live in an area with a great children's hospital) said that he is pretty certain it is asthma but if he doesn't respond to the treatment plan then they need to start doing further testing to see if it is something else like cystic fibrosis.  So yeah that always great to hear. My paranoid mother/nurse who has seen a lot of things that can go wrong has kicked into high gear.  I find it weird that I will be happy if it is just asthma that has been really aggravated by multiple colds.

Lately baby J has been sleeping on his tummy.  I find this interesting because when I put him on his tummy a lot of time he fusses.  If he does it on his own he seems okay with it.  Now that he rolls both ways easily he seems to want to roll to his tummy when he is ready to sleep.  I can’t believe how much he has changed since he was born.  I miss him being so little and sleeping on me.  Although I don’t miss getting up to feed him at night.   I think he will be crawling soon.  He moves around so much on his mat and he is starting to pull his knees underneath him.  I need to go buy baby gates for the stairs so we get used to them before we really need them.  I’m trying to get him to say mama but he just laughs at me.  Apparently it is funny when I say mama.  
L is almost done with school for the year.  He informed me this afternoon that he is four weeks away from being done.  I’m kind of looking forward to it.  I’m ready to not have to deal with homework and getting him up for school.  He mostly gets himself up but I make sure he gets out the door on time.  He has decided that he wants to join the school band next year.  He signed up to play the trumpet.  He thought about playing the drums but you have to try because a lot of kids want to and they don’t need that many drummers.  My son is going to band camp this summer.  It is weird thinking that he is old enough to do it.  Since he has signed up he can be in band until he graduates.  If he drops out then he can not rejoin at any time.  I think this will be good for him.  
I managed to make it to work tonight only to find out that I was not scheduled to work.  I wrote down my days wrong in my calendar.  I’m sure I am not the only person who has done this but I feel stupid.  So I slept all day today and now I am not sleepy.  Also since I have waited until the last day to take the stupid test I will be up there bright and early to take it.  Good times!

I guess I will update this.  I slept longer than I should have today and now I am up.  This is the bad thing about working nights.  I normally do my schedule for several days in a row but they way it worked out this week I am working every other day.  I have no idea why anyone would want to space there days out like that.  So I am trying to go to the day shift at work.  I love working nights and I will again someday but for now it doesn't work for me.  I am planning to go back to school and so is James.  It is insane to try to work nights, take care of the kids, pay for daycare day and night (I can't get almost no sleep during the day and work all night), and try to function.  So I have asked to move to days.  I am hoping that it will happen by June so maybe I can start classes this summer but we will see. 
My life is going to be super busy for the next two weeks.  We are going to Disney on Thursday.  In between that I have to get the house clean, laundry, pack, help with my sister's birthday party, work, and get my house ready for my friend's shower.  I think that I like in a weird way overloading myself.  I'm looking forward to a little vacation but not the flying.  It will be different flying with a baby.  Baby J will be 6 months old in a few days.  I hope that he does well on the flight.  Although we are flying to Orlando so if he does cry he won't be the only kid on the plane doing it.  I think I have it planned out well enough to hopefully avoid any problems. 
L has decided that he wants to join the school band next year.  The school sent home forms for school next year.  He gets to pick his elective for next year, sort of.  They asked them to rank their top 3 choices.  It's pretty cool though.  James will have to go the parent info session for band.  I don't mind L doing band I just hope he realizes how much he will have to practice.  L is musically talented which is great and not so great.  He has the ability to pick a song or instrument quickly the bad thing is that once he feels like he knows something he feels like he doesn't need to practice anymore.  It drives me a little nuts. 
Baby J is growing.  He is growing a little too fast for me.  I can't believe he is just a few days shy of being 6 months.  He has changed so much.  His personality is really coming out.  He finally managed to roll over from his tummy to his back.  He has been doing the back to tummy thing for awhile but now he can roll both ways.  He still doesn't like being on his tummy except for the other morning when I found him sleeping in his crib on his tummy.  He has started pulling my hair.  That will have to come to a stop quickly.  He is very grabby and it is cute at the moment but I know that it won't be for long.
Alright I am going to wrap this up before I get too frustrated with this laptop.  It has a small keyboard and I have managed to almost delete this a couple of times by hitting the wrong keys.